on a daily basis;

i'd like my house to have a huge blackboard wall just at one side of the house, so that my little ones could scribble on it with colorful chalks. or so i could just write inspiring quotes on them, daily, as a reminder for my family and i, i'd change it every night, so everyone will wake up the next morning inspired reading little reminders like that. even better - probably write one hadith a day, great messages to live by.


i can't help but to feel saddened by the world around me lately. deaths every now and then. really - how else could we be reminded of how temporal this life was made. we live on every night assuming we would be promised tomorrow, when really, no one ever promised us such.

we live our lives quite carelessly at times. saying the things we say, feeling the things we feel. these days i just had to tell myself to try not to lengthen things so much. my one second is too precious to be spent with hatred or disappointment. if i wasn't happy with the situation, i'd turn it around, and i'd do it quickly. if i was depressed of my condition, i'd remind myself of blessed i am with the things around me.

of this comfy room i have, the clothes i have on, for every breath and every blink of an eye are such great blessings that i easily forget. i have - such great support system, a fantastic family, all healthy and happy alhamdulillah - it is only just waiting to go. all these things are on loan.

there are so many things i have in plan, but none i'd invest in too deep, not because i don't believe it will never happen, but only to be reminded that i can only plan and strive for the best. and it stops right there. the end result was never my say or anyone else's except Him.

training my soul to be a light traveller in this dunya is not as easy as i thought it was. you want to step into this whole dunya business, but making sure your trust and expectations are in check. reliance on not humans and their imperfections, but only on to Allah and His perfection.

i aim to be the best at what i do.

every time, and every day.

the best muslimah, best wife, the best daughter, best sister, best friend, best companion, best person i could ever be.

i live this on a daily basis.

and i intend to live this until the very end.